okay, peanut.

I’m a happy, bubbly person. But today … argh.

That’s about all I can say right now. I have my moments; we all do. Throughout most of my life, they’ve been here and there; hit or miss. Over the past year and a half, though, I’ve been in this … let’s call it a funk. And even better, today, a moment hit like no other. Okay, so maybe there has been another like this, but it’s been a very l-o-n-g time.

I won’t talk about it here. It’s ongoing … and at times like these, it really sucks. And somehow, it’s indirectly placed me in this abyss … alone, and unable to fully communicate this crap to anyone.

I’m so confused. How do the effects of one thing change so much in life? This is not me. Yet somehow, it’s who I’ve become.

Eh, tomorrow will be better. It’s got to get better. It’s not all I’ve got in life, so I need to look beyond the tunnel vision. I have wonderful family, a great marriage, and for the most part, I’ve got my s**t together.

So tell me, why can’t I handle this???